The Internet, procrastination and exhaustion.

I feel like I’m constantly tired.

Now, before any of my friends and or more likely, my mother, comments about my constant fatigue, no I’m not pregnant. I wish I had that to blame this on, but I don’t.

Note – It does make me concerned for what will happen when I do get pregnant again. I spent the first three months of my last pregnancy completely exhausted & passed out by 7p.m. each night. If I have not gotten control of my current situation by then, my coworkers are going to find me comatose in my office by mid afternoon.

No, this exhastion is of my own creation and I know why.

I wake up tired, I drink some coffee. I get to work, order more coffee & go through the morning tired. After lunch I get more coffee and go through the afternoon tired. I get home, organize dinner, pjs, baths, contemplate tidying toys and realize I’m exhausted. Finally, when Lilly is in bed and the house looks semi-sane again, do I go to bed early like I should?

No. I stay up till 1 a.m. pinning shit.

Someone needs to kill my Internet around 11 PM every night. That would make my life so much easier. I realize that it wouldn’t take away all of the distractions in my house like TV or books. However it would certainly put an end Netflix, Pinterest and Twitter, giving me a hope in hell of sleeping.

I know this is my own fault. I am a big girl and really shouldn’t need someone to enforce my bedtime.

It’s just so hard! *whiny toddler tone, stomping feet*

It’s not really that hard, but it is tempting. As many fellow parents know, those moments after your precious bundle goes to bed are nearly euphoric. There are days, after some of her more trying evenings, that I want to stand outside of Lilly’s bedroom door and bellow out a Braveheart style freedom speech.

The next couple hours should be spent catching up on laundry, cooking for the next day, office work and making sure my blog isn’t being neglected and that sponsored posts are not left until the day before a deadline. In my head, the night ends with me going to bed at a reasonable hour, feeling rested and accomplished.

This never happens.

The internet, procrastination and exhaustion.

Sure, the majority of nights, much of that gets done to some degree. For instance tonight, I did a hour of work for the office, brought a basket of Lilly’s clothes upstairs (Sitting at the end of my bed in a heap. I have no intention of folding it tonight.) and I am working on my blog…which obviously you know, since you’re reading it.

I go into each evening with the best intentions, and ultimately end up lost in a downward spiral of social media addictions and 2-3 episodes of Dawson’s Creek… Don’t judge me. Last month it was One Tree Hill and I’m sure next month I’ll have moved onto another long forgotten teen geared show. I’ve been feeling nostalgic.

I know the solution to my problem. If I could become more efficient and go to bed at a reasonable time, I could get into a routine that allows me the best of both worlds. I could crawl into bed at 10:30pm, knowing the laundry is caught up & play on Pinterest for a full half hour guilt free. Then I could put down the phone/laptop like an adult and go to sleep.

This would stop me from endlessly falling into my vicious and exhausting cycle. Which leaves me feeling, as best described by Allie @ Hyperbole and a Half, “almost completely useless for anything other than consuming nachos and surfing the internet like an attention-deficient squirrel on PCP. ”

Seriously, even the nachos part of that statement is bang on. 

The internet, procrastination and exhaustion. Image by @AllieBrosh
Hilarious and fairly accurate drawing by Allie @ Hyperbole and a Half

Ideally speaking, I would like to really hold out hope that I can find the strength to make this happen. However, I have blogged about my lack of sleep and organization before and well, here we are again. 

And on that note, as it is now exactly 12:15am, I am going to hit publish and go to sleep. Scouts honour.

Comments

  1. says

    Balancing work, family and then fun stuff (like pinning/blogging) for yourself is impossible! There is no balance if you aren’t tired then something has not gotten the attention it needs. Here from the FUn Friday Hop

  2. says

    Thank you for ripping the lid off of the reality or why so many of us are so tired!! Like you, I’m up until all ours of the night, online. Not pinning stuff, but updating my blog, tweeting, Facebooking and other unecessary stuff. It’s insane! It’s almost like we need parental controls – for PARENTS – on our internet! Great post :)

  3. says

    Great post! I guess that’s something that I can be happy for, I am pregnant, thus am forced to go to sleep early because quite frankly, I just don’t give a damn to stay up and clean. Staying up is til 10 these days.

    I wish you luck in ending that cycle… keeping a schedule seems to be helpful, including scheduling in the pinning!

    Stopping by the Follow Who? Blog Hop.

  4. says

    Just yesterday I hadnt realized the sun had gone down and I was sitting in the pitch black pinning!!! You are not fighting this battle alone :)
    Jay {at} Purple Eggplant

  5. says

    I’ve been going through the same stupid cycle for the last three weeks. Our babysitter has been MIA between end of college, moving for a new job and waiting for the new one to start, so my work schedule is down to the hours from 10 p.m.ish to 2 a.m.ish. And you can see it on my face. :)
    Linking up from the Mom’s Monday Mingle

  6. says

    I’d take Samantha’s comment one step further- Go ahead and set up Parental controls for yourself, literally. BB’s gone so far as having no net/cable at home and going to the library from 9 -12. You’d think that would mean a spotless house right? ::sigh:: Did you know Candy Crush doesn’t need the internet? BB2U

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