Pregnancy and stroke.
Those are two words that I did not know could go together. And yet those are two words that I’ve heard a lot over the last few weeks.
I haven’t blogged about this pregnancy nearly as much as I wanted to. I have drafts sitting on here, nearly ready to go. I just have to find the time to finish them. This pregnancy has been much harder on me than Lily ever was. I guess that’s to be expected the second time around, as you don’t have nearly as much time. Everything feels a little more rushed, and a little more stressed.
For starters, I am already showing the symptoms of Cholestasis again with this pregnancy. Without getting into it, it is a liver condition I had with Lilly that caused us to be induced at 38 weeks. All in all it was fine. We had good notice and were prepared for it. However, it does mean that this little guy could be joining us in a mere 10 weeks.
Between home life, work, and school, I’m just starting to feel like I have nothing prepared. Like I’m running out of time.
However, as limited as my time feels right now, I wanted to make sure that I took some time to document what’s going on right now. I want to documented for my daughter, so she has this information for her future pregnancies. I also wanted to put it out here, because I know I have a lot of friends and family who are very supportive that read this blog. I know they will add me to prayer circles, keep me in their thoughts, and send me good jujus. All of which I would gladly take right now.
On December 11 I had the first episode. I’ve been doing some Christmas crafting with Lilly at the kitchen table, and when I stood up I knew immediately that something was wrong. The room was spinning, I had spots in front of my eyes and I told Adam that I thought I was going to pass out. He helped me to the couch so I could lay down. I told him he needed to turn off all of the lights because I just could not stand the sight of them. Right away I recognized the symptoms of what I was having as those of a migraine. I’m the only one in my immediate family that doesn’t get chronic migraines. But my mom did tell me that she didn’t start having migraines until she was pregnant with me. So maybe just my time is coming due.
I laid down on the couch for about 25 to 30 minutes and it was when I stood up that the scary part took over. I had lost feeling in my left arm. It hadn’t fallen asleep. It was just numb. Within five minutes it had climbed up and spread across the entire left side of my face. It literally felt as if I just left the dentist office with freezing in my mouth. It lasted about another 5 to 10 minutes before disappearing as quickly as it came on.
Being the Google happy mom that I am, I started digging. A few terms were coming back that could easily make sense, such as carpal tunnel or a pinched nerve from the little man inside of me. I saw my OB the next day and filled her in on what had happened. I told her the reading I had done, but she pointed out that carpal tunnel would really only be in the limps, not my face. The fact that it had impacted my face is what she found concerning. Then she said the word that started all of this; stroke. Apparently some women can carry such a high level of hormones in their blood when pregnant that it can cause migraines, blood clots and could lead to stroke. She put me on a daily low-dose of aspirin to help thin my blood and let me know I am to stay on it until a few weeks before labour. My blood needs time to thicken back up before labour to reduce the risk of hemorrhaging…another unpleasant word to hear.
Two days later I had a similar, but lesser episode, on the right side of my body. The room spun a little bit, I felt a little bit disoriented, and I lost feeling in my right arm. This episode was much shorter than the first one, which was a relief. This time I was alone with Lilly, which worried me even more, but it did pass quickly.
I started my aspirin right away and it seems to have helped. However, I have had two episodes since going on aspirin. While down in Toronto with my best friend, the room started spinning and I felt light headed. It passed quickly. Then last week I had a full blown migraine at the office. This time with the temple throbbing and all. The very presence of my laptop screen was painful. It lasted roughly 20 minutes.
Yesterday I had my latest check up with my OB. I filled her in on the two incidences I have had since going on the aspirin. She mentioned that she was going to put in a call with a local cardiologist specialist to get his opinion. 20 minutes after leaving my OB’s office, they called me to say I was to meet with the specialist today, first thing in the morning. In the words of the nurse, they want to make sure I’m not going to have a stroke on them in the next 2 and a half months…
So that brings us to the latest. I met with the cardiologist this morning and had a check up with him. We went over a lot with family history and what exactly I have been feeling, blow-by-blow, when the episodes come on. He mentioned their first suspect would be my blood pressure, but it is perfect. Next they would look at my blood work, which also came back fine. So now we are at the point of looking at other possible causes.
While he said this could easily just be all caused by migraines and nothing more, they want to look at all angles. I have an ECG on Monday and they were able to get me in today for an MRI. While the cardiologist assured me that both tests are safe during pregnancy, I have to admit, the MRI was incredibly emotional and stressful. They had me sign a consent form and warned me that the machine makes quite a lot of noise. Noise was an understatement. It was very loud and my poor little man spent the entire 30 minute procedure completely losing his mind in there. I laid still, taking deep breaths and trying to keep calm with tears streaming down my face. It doesn’t help that I am pregnant and therefore generally emotional all the time these days, but knowing my baby was stressed and there was nothing I could do for him was a very useless feeling.
So where am I through all of this? Basically, I am trying very hard not to freak out. I am working hard to remind myself that no real answers also means no real reason to overstress. The bottom line is this could be nothing. It could be something. We just simply don’t know yet.
Naturally I am feeling concerned. If this turns out to be something that has an increasing risk to me, are they going to want to take him out even earlier? Is he at risk through all of this? My episodes have come when I was walking, or when I was sitting doing nothing physical at all. Therefore I have nothing to pinpoint as a trigger. This freaks me out even more since it can come on at any time, with absolutely no warning.
I have just under 3 months to go and am really hoping for no further complications.
Ideally speaking, the phrase miracle of life will hold true throughout the rest of my pregnancy and both me and my little man will come out of it perfectly healthy. In the meantime, I’ll take all the good vibes you’ve got.
Ferrah says
Good vibes coming to you all, Crystal.
Jenn says
HUGS! That is such a scary and mind blowing experience you have been through! I can’t believe it!! You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers and if you need ANYTHING please let me know!!
HUGS!! Take care!
Jessica says
Good vibes coming your way!
AlwaysARedhead says
Oh my goodness, and I complained about my nine months of morning sickness, I take it all back. How very stressful, hugs.
Lauralee says
Wishing you all the best…and especially good health for you and the wee one from here on in.
When I was pregnant with my first, my entire health profile changed – I’d had serious arthritis in one hip, and severe migraines… both disappeared … but in exchange I picked up a whole lot of other challenges…. and funnily enough, when I hit menopause, I got to add the migraines and arthritis back in.
Life’s a bitch …but it is ever so much better than the alternative.
Take care of you.
Kathy Radigan says
Crystal please know my thoughts and prayers are with you, your little man, and your family. How scary!! Sending hugs!!
Kid Brother says
You got not nothing to worry about! That’s a tough little melo\wiltshire you have in there those are the two of the toughest names I’ve ever come across! You and that little boy will get through this with flying colours. Migraines are very common on that side of the fam and I’m willing to put my money on that. So you got nothing to worry about! “Gotchyo back sis”. I’ve never done this before.. Am I supposed to hash tag something?
#familysupport4life… Just in case.
michelle k says
Wow, I had a very similar experience with my (now) 16 m/o daughter. For me it came whenever I was standing, I would suddenly become very dizzy, short of breath and would almost black out if I started walking when the episodes would hit. The only consistant was when I stood up, my heart rate would sky rocket from a resting 77 to a standing 155 bpm in 3 seconds flat. After Chest xray, leg doppler and ct scan (all not safe during pregnancy, and had to sign those lovely waivers that had me quivering in my skin and just as emotional) they did a holter test, an ECG, the whole work up, and could find nothing. It tamed a little, but I still could not stand for prolonged periods of time and then developed Gestational Diabetes (confirmed at only 21 weeks, which is mad early). So it seemed one thing after the other. Long story short, sometimes terrifying symptoms appear during pregnancy that can’t be traced back to a source (or so I’m told :p) during pregnancy, and I now have a beautiful and scarily intelligent daughter who is leaping forward on all of her developmental stages with astounding speed. I send you all my best wishes that these episodes lead to nothing and at very best stop entirely!!! Pregnancy is hard enough without a bunch of other things popping up to scare you half to death!!!
Jennifer (@momvstheboys) says
Oh how stressful, hang in there hon. Hoping and praying that all will be okay
Crystal @ Sew Creative says
Thinking about you and sending you and your little man tons of good vibes and positive thoughts.
jody krahn says
Hugs and prayers crys!! Xoxo
Iris says
Heya Lady, your the best, dont stress about having everything all ready. You have love and that’s all a family needs. Work wiill get done and the people around you understand. Life too short, enjoy it. hugs!
Tatiana Hedley says
I am so sorry you’re going through this. It’s so scary and the lack of control must be agonizing. I hope everything turns out perfect for you and baby and everyone else involved. Many hugs.
Cheryl says
Crystal … I am thinking of you and praying you and your little one are that miracle of life. Take it easy and all will turn out just fine I am sure
Rossana says
I can only imagine how scary this is for you, I am sorry you are going through this. I pray everything turns out fine. (Hugs)
MommiesFirst says
Physical experiences can definitely be twice as scary when pregnant. Take care of yourself and remember to treat yourself to some pampering in order to stay as calm and relaxed as possible hugs!
Doris says
All the best Crystal- thinking of you and sending positive energy and thoughts your way.
Astra says
Sounds very scary, and I am glad your doctor is monitoring this carefully. Sending you the good vibes you deserve for a healthy, happy and uneventful remainder of your pregnancy!
Margarita Ibbott ~ @DownshiftingPRO says
Sending you hugs and prayers… Please take care of you, baby & the rest of your family.
Brandy says
Oh my. I am so sorry you are going through all of this stress during what should be an exciting, happy time. I will definitely be sending positive and healthy thoughts your way.
Renee @ My So-Called Mommy Life says
What a stressful thing to be going through! Fingers are crossed for your and your little guy Crystal.
Jessica says
wow! You have been though a lot, I’m glad that things are better. Sending lots of love and good vibes your way. Xoxo